A Bear's Life

ericb34r

Reflecting 2008... What have I done, what I have learn? It's been quite an adventure this year. I've been through good times, bad times and I learnt a lot...

I went back from Slough in Feb this year. It's been good 18 months in Slough. I love it there. Thanks to the colleagues in Lonza and fellow trainees. I really enjoyed the time I was there. It's great!!!

I lost a friend, my grandmother, two other people that I know. It's not a good thing. It's sad. I never lost a friend before. It's disheartening but I am sure we will meet again someday. I lost my grandmother too. It was unexpected. =( I got a call one morning from my mom that she's gone. We all didn't expect it. No warning at all. Till we meet again, Grandma...

On the other hand, I met new friends. And we became close friend. You know who you are. I am thankful for them. Thanks, guys. I learnt that my friends are important people. Unfortunately, it was short time but we became close. We'll meet again my friend. In the future, 2010!!! Woohoo... =D

I started work in march. The work is great! Colleagues are great! They are awesome. I love my job. You must be wondering, what the hell this person love his job? But I do!!! I am enjoying it. It's always fun at work! We made it fun! =D

I started my study again. It's hard to go back to study after a while. I made it through my first semester. I had good result too! I wasn't expecting the good result, but I did! Thankful for that. One more semester to go for me and after that no more studying! I must endure! You can do it, Eric!!!

I went for a few trips too this year. Went to Vietnam, went to Phuket, went to Manado. and few other diving trips. It's good to dive again. =D

I have been bad in few things. I haven't been good in ash. I know I should do more. I am sorry guys. I could do better. Next year, I promise I'll do more.

My sister went to HK for work. It's good for her. She really wanted to work overseas and see the world. You go, sis!!! I support you all the way! =D

I am thankful for this year. It's not the best year! There are things that could be better. There are things that I wish did not happen. Things that are unexpected. It's part of life I think. It's a matter how we see it and how we deal with it. And that's what makes us better everyday and that what makes us human too. I learnt new things in life too. Thanks for my friends for showing me. I dunno what I'll do or be without you guys! Thank you, once again... I am great not because I am, but because I have you guys, my friends...

It'll be a better year in 2009. It will, my dear friends... I will be there... And we'll make it a great year!!! =D

What's wrong, what's getting you down?
Was it something I might have said?
You're walking around with your head to the ground
And your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through tough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
But you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cos I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name, let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain, help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond, you and I, we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses, I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins

I swore I'd be your lifeline, made a vow 
That I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name, let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain, help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when

So promise me you'll call my name
Let me be an answer
'cos it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain, help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

An man of 92 years, short, very well-presented, who takes great care in his appearance, is moving into an old people's home today.

His wife of 70 just recently passed away, and he is obliged to leave his home.

After waiting several hours in the retirement lobby, he gently smiles as he is told that his room is ready.

As he slowly walks to the elevator, using his cane, I describe his small room to him, including the sheet hung at the window which serves as a curtain.

"I like it very much", he says, with the enthusiasm of an 8 years old boy who has just given a new puppy.

"M. Gagne, you haven't even seen the room yet, hang on the moment, we are almost there"

"That has nothing to do with it", he replied.

"Happiness is something I choose in advance. Whether or not I like the room does not depend on the furniture, or the decor - rather it depends on how I decide to see it.

It is already decided in my mind that I like the room. It is a decision I take every morning when I wake up.

I can choose. I can spend my day in bed enumerating all the difficulties that I have with the parts of my body that no longer work very well, or I can get up and give thanks to heaven for those parts that are still in working order.

Everyday is a gift, and as long as I can open my eyes, I will focus on the new day, and all the happy memories that I have built up during my life.

Old age is like a bank account. You withdraw in later life what you have deposited along the way.

So, my advice to you is to deposit all the happiness you can in your bank account of memories.

Thank you for your part filling my account with happy memories, which I am still continuing to fill."

It's nerdy time... It's been a while since the last time I have exams. My last exam was over two years ago. Now I am in the month of exams again. I really need to study!!!

It seems so hard to study now that I am working. I used to study and work too. But it seems a lot harder now. ='( I just can't wait for this to end. Four exams and one report! Eric, hang in there!!!

ericb34r

Maybe I hadn't been here before... I didn't understand why. I couldn't figure it out. I was confused...

Thank you for showing it to me. Now I understand. Although it's hard, I am learning to accept things I can't change and letting go things that I can't carry...

To those who understand, thank you very much. It's gonna take time, but I will be fine... At least, I think I will be...